Reality Check

Finally she re-edited and proofread the final versions of my MIT essays and as usual gave back some valuable advise. She is still not 100% convinced - I always try to tell her, everyone is not as good as you are. She sometimes goes through these creative phases and come up with some excellent ideas. She already gave me a very good tip about Stanford Essay #1 [unfortunately I may have to drop Stanford from my list] . I sometime wonder if she applied to Business School she would be a shoo-in in a Top 5 - but I can't convince her to go for an MBA - she prefers the academia. I am really appreciative that in spite of her hectic schedule she could find some time for me and took genuine interest in my essays. Ohh well!! I forget sometimes that she is a super woman.

Today we were discussing after the editing was done about this entire MBA process. She always tell me that after I go to school I would be fairly disappointed as I have raised MBA to a certain pedestal - it is after all a school - what more can you expect?
I sometimes get attracted to this external glitz - like a moth to a burning flame. But since the last 2 years I have matured a lot and take everything with a skeptic eye. The outside matters, but the inside matters the most.

After all MBA is not a do or die situation. Worse - I will not get an admission in any of the schools I apply - What then? Can the adcomms stop me from achieving my goals, my ambitions, my desires, my dreams? MBA is an aid not a necessity. Ain't it? So why get disappointed at all? Think about the worst case scenario from now itself so that I don't get upset in the end. Ohh Well!! I will get dinged from all the schools - I will pack my bags - leave my current job - take a English teaching assignment in a Latin American country or go backpacking to Kilimanjaro. I always craved for those mountaineering experience - how about climbing Mount Everest? [ with the weakest of lungs - my-o-my I dare to dream]

How can someone decide my fate and why should that happen? I can't let someone else take the reigns of my life - I want to write it myself. MBA not - so what? Life doesn't end here - if I have an idea and the passion - I will go door to door in Palo Alto - I will become "Stifler meister" if required to get my wish fulfilled. I will be that dog who wags his tail for a piece of bread - I won't stop achieving.

I remember the famous ad line from one of the Indian commercials - I would apply the same philosophy to my MBA applications:

"Fill it, Shut it, Forget it."